Yukie the Chthonic Magnet

[yukie]

So a couple weeks ago, I got nudged in the head at work by Ereskigal. And Haides. (Older spelling used on purpose.) Which - I shouldn't be surprised, but it was just unexpected. I suppose my office being in a basement is conducive to Chthonic deities getting in touch with me?

But either way.

I talked with both of them a bit; I've got the notecards I wrote everything down on.

I get the feeling that the way deities nudge me is not entirely like other people get nudged, which isn't SHOCKING because everyone's different, but the way people describe it is often a lot more flash-and-kazam than what happens to me.

But I digress.

Haides is - blunt. Not unkind by any means, just BLUNT. And he has a hell of a deadpan (nooaauurrgh pun) sense of humour. For example: I was sitting there yesterday being kind of miserable and wondering, 'Why am I still here, anyway? I mean, I'm kind of a dick, so like, is it chance, or what Is there something left that I have to do?'

And he says, "Yes, there is; live."

I just sat there for a couple minutes being alternately stunned and amused.

He says also that I got three recs: Ereskigal, Thanatos (the one in my head, who isn't exactly the Greek daimon/deity, but is related, so it's like, deity second cousins), and - Hermes, whom I know Kyl works with sometimes.

(Incidentally: Anything the jerk child told you about your work with Hellenic deities was bullshit. *hugs* I have confirmation. XD You have a right to work with who you work with and everything she said about Apollo was, and I quote, 'total fabrication - a bunch of nonsense cooked up by an insecure, amateurish young person who probably put Phoibos off with her attitude to begin with'.)

I wasn't expecting that XD;

But - yeah. I guess maybe I ought to have. I'm not sure why Haides, as I never worked a lot with the Hellenic pantheon - I thought I'd more likely get nudged by Ankou or Gwyn ap Nudd, but - well, things go how they go.

And YES, I am sure he is who he says he is - the way he appeared in my mind's eye matches the Greek iconography, which I was unfamiliar with. ;p I'm not your whipping girl; don't conflate your feelings and bitterness toward other jerks with yours for me. I'm no one's guru and I have no desire to be. I'm a Seeker, and sometimes I'm given messages to relay. That's it.

I'm a Seeker who has homework to do, too XD

Comments

[finch]

don't conflate your feelings and bitterness toward other jerks with yours for me.

You phrase that like bitterness toward you is a given. =P

[yukie]

XD! Well, in some cases it is; not necessarily HERE, and my god it took me forever to parse that sentence, my brain is OFF. :B

Anyway yeah, there was recently this spate of MAN WAT in which a few people were mildly irked with me for valid reasons (mostly me sticking my foot in my mouth), and somehow that got velcro'd onto their major issues with people they don't have the vertebrae yet to confront... There were like four of them in a row. I was perplexed.

It's stopped now, thank the fuck XD; I mean I was able to go 'lol k?' with but minor irritation beforebut now it's like, nope, too much on my bike rack to deal with people being dorks.

And I love the expression of the bird in your icon. XD

[novel_machinist]

I wonder if the deities have seasons, does that make sense? It seems like people individually have cycles and those of you that the deities speak to have times where new ones enter and times where the old ones move along? It fascinates me to read about, good luck with them.

[yukie]

That could be! Winter/fall would make sense for these guys, and it WAS about this time last year Thanatos showed up ^^

[mullenkamp]

BASEMENT CAT WORKS IN THE BASEMENT XD That's really neat though. I always thought Hades got a bad rap, to be honest, and I was never spooked out by him in the stories--I think a lot of the hurrdalurr comes from Christianizing baggage and that cultural fear of chthonic beings that stems from centuries of conflating Pagan underworlds with the Christian Hell.

I don't get flash-kazam very often. Honestly, it depends on the deity. Lady E. is very quiet and subtle and tends to work in signs rather than talking to me directly. Hermes--well, he's the wisecracking voice that without fail sounds like Steve Buscemi. Sometimes, I'll have slight impressions or feelings that are distinctly Not Mine, that aren't from people in system.

I remember a long time ago, when I was still taking baby steps into this whole Pagan thing, I was meditating and I got what I felt was a very distinct impression of Chrystalis. She didn't say anything, it was more like I felt her presence within me very keenly, and it was distinctly her, not the human Aurora avatar-shape. Keep it mind this was years before I'd even heard of soulbonders/muses/otakin whatever. I was promptly freaked out, in a way that I hadn't been by much else, even given my recovering fundigelical background.

BTW that message about my Hellenic relationships made me feel a lot better, more than you might realize (I'm wibbling here). I wasn't expecting it either, to be honest. Yes, "stop listening to idiots" but--okay there's no but, I get that now. XD; I don't know if I SHOULD work with Apollo again. I'm so Dark-oriented now that it seems odd to work with a solar deity, but then I remember Sydney also works with Chrys, and being tapped by Lady M. doesn't mean I can't or shouldn't work with anyone else on a closer level. I guess I have to get rid of that lingering monotheistic "jealous god" nonsense.

[yukie]

XD; I worried I was being presumptuous relaying it. Like, oh fuck, am I being an assy bossmachine? But - yeah. The 'this is in me but not of me' is how things usually feel. Like thoughts from people with clout have a WEIGHT that mine lack. (Depending on whether or not Siri is god-moding, he feels different. XD) And I'm glad I'm not the only one for whom it works that way XD; I've worried that I'm kidding myself a few times but then something like this happens XD;;;

Haides's bad rep is very much a result of 'fomg it's TEH UNDERWORLD AND SPOOKY D:' and fear that any underworld is a hell. Which - Tartarus is clearly not somewhere that just anybody goes for arbitrary reasons, in the stories. And Tartarus is not the whole of the realm. One of the Elysiums is there too, beyond the Lethe river (and all this sounds so familiar as I look it up to confirm XD;) tl;dr the underworld is definitely not this one, but is not all bad.

Man, I think fundigelical is slightly meaner to recover form than Catholicism; I mean, Catholics have GUILT but it's not quite as PERSONAL.

I think most gods aren't totes jealous mostly. Like they might get all 'ri...ight' if you're demanding and neglectful but mostly it's like - yeah. Even when he was nuts T-biz wasn't horribly envious most of the time. XD; he had fits of snarly, but mostly it was just like "Screw all you guys." He's better now XD;