i have run out of tissues and i am cranky

he wasn't the first person to tell me those sorts of things, and he isn't going to be the last one, either.

and it wouldn't be so annoying if he and the other people who got something up their nose and decided yelling at me was fun weren't right, sometimes. if they never ever had a point it'd be much much simpler :p

i mean, someone who i thought of as a close friend really did flip out badly when she found out some of my family tree has youma chilling out on the branches as well as fae. and i didn't know what was wrong. i just knew she was watching me all funny all the time, that we didn't talk like we used to. i thought i'd done something really wrong, that i hurt her somehow. so i was sitting trying to figure out where i could have made a mistake. and then everything smashed into a wall and went to little bits the night she ditched me and almost got set on fire by a very upset alchemist. i mean, she almost - bleh!

and so it goes. ( and more things. )

i need to remember that i'm allowed to make mistakes and have colds and not kick myself when things like errors and bleh sinuses happen. mistakes can be fixed, and colds go away. and i can remember that training for that long when it's that cold is a little silly. :)

-vicky

p.s. also nothing brought this fit of staring at my belybutton on except my sinuses being full of bleh and failure. so no self kicking from the spectators!