Riding things out, a little at a time
Apr. 15th, 2013 02:58 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yukieStricken with an especially crappy bout of survivors' guilt as of late, yay merrily yay, and it's not helping for having my buttons pressed hard by piddly little shit. This inevitably leads me to thoughts of vengeful verb-shredding, which is the antithesis of fun in and of itself.
Also of note is the nagging anger at the idea that people see me as a child, NEED me to be childish or see me as such in order for their egos to work. Usually these people have no spine except when it comes to using me as an effigy scratching post XP All y'all are terribly lucky I possess the self-control I have~
Anyway yes I am a cranky little fucking bitch but it'll pass. It's getting warmer, I'll be able to run again, I got my income taxt crap back and should be able to afford a decent enough laptop now. And gods willing i will have the patience to deal with nimrodly blasts from the past and not just kick them down the stairs twice. XD
I still miss Iva. But I'll have to ride that out too. And I will. I always do. It's who I am. I've never had the luxury of any other choice.
But I've had good company on the road, so thanx 2 u who've been there for me XD
Also of note is the nagging anger at the idea that people see me as a child, NEED me to be childish or see me as such in order for their egos to work. Usually these people have no spine except when it comes to using me as an effigy scratching post XP All y'all are terribly lucky I possess the self-control I have~
Anyway yes I am a cranky little fucking bitch but it'll pass. It's getting warmer, I'll be able to run again, I got my income taxt crap back and should be able to afford a decent enough laptop now. And gods willing i will have the patience to deal with nimrodly blasts from the past and not just kick them down the stairs twice. XD
I still miss Iva. But I'll have to ride that out too. And I will. I always do. It's who I am. I've never had the luxury of any other choice.
But I've had good company on the road, so thanx 2 u who've been there for me XD
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Date: 2013-04-15 04:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-15 06:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-15 05:59 pm (UTC)<3 keep on keepin on, my bad lungs buddy. It's all you can do!
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Date: 2013-04-15 06:47 pm (UTC)Yeah the trees are starting up again here in Canucksville XD The willows are like, "NOW, WE GENERATE PUFFBALLS! AND YELLOW!"
My sinuses are craberiffic but my lungs are fairly okay apart from one ;oh god my neighbour killed a spider in the hall with ~natural~ bug spray and now the entire hall smells like a chrysanthemum orgy *WHEEEEEZE*' moment; I hope you feel better soon. *hugs*
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Date: 2013-04-19 01:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-04-19 05:17 am (UTC)I missed out on most of the familiar allergies but pollen still bugs my nose~